My life stops on a dime, quicker than any brake pad. I once was happy, now my switch has flipped…the light goes off in my soul. I’m dark and ruined. The tears trickle down, a low mist…enough for me to know, but enough for me to hide the pain. I keep it quiet, not wanting my darkness to flow over the joy of a mom and son. The laughing, the fun… ohh how I wish to engage….no, I don’t want to engage. I am ruined and broken. I am warm and numb, disconnected from a life that once was. The words stream. Soon, I’ll sleep. What tomorrow holds? If there is a tomorrow.