I sit knowing it’s going to come back.

I sit numb again 

I sit with the low that only comes with another attack.

I sit numb again

I felt empowered.  I felt alive.  I felt free from the monotony of pills.

Sitting.  Staring.  Empty walls waiting to come down.

I sit numb again

When will the black veil drape over me.

I sit numb again

I sit numb 

I sit

Time will tell when I am back in my hell.

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